When it all falls down, i'll still be right here

It's cold!!
I'm watching videos of Ashley Greene and Jackson Rathbone on youtube. I love them, they should have lots of babies. srsly. His real name is Monroe Jackson Rathbone IV haha.
"You will not call that boy Paul!"

So yeah. I'm sitting with my hair in these roller things because I wanted to curl my hair tomorrow and I think it might be too short, so I'm doing a test run haha. Me and my sister are going to Whitley bay for a meal, then for drinks, so i'm digging out all my make up to give that a test run too. I haven't decided what i'm going to wear yet so I can't really decide on my make up either. I want something new to wear but can't really afford it.

I went to Boots today to get a new foundation, it's the new Revlon one.. they were sold out but I tried the tester and it's amazing. It comes out of the tube white but when you rub it in to your skin it matches your skin tone, which is perfect because I can never get one that looks right.

I saw a dead mouse today. It wasn't very nice. It was just lying on its back looking all dead and stuff... I was thinking, if a cat did it, why didn't it just eat the mouse? I feel sick again now.

Today is so boring! I had a meeting this morning with Yourlink and I start my first aid course on Monday. I'm bricking it, tbh. It's only Monday & Wednesday though so it shouldn't be too bad...I hope. I saw my dad at the shops and asked him to wait for me because I was going to be late for my meeting..he kept ringing me while I was in the meeting, then text me to tell me he'd gone home. Thanks dad! My mum is being quite a bitch lately too! After that I just had a wonder round the mall...I posted lots of letters, bought myself a pretty pink bra and some blusher..ooh and I weighed myself. I lost another 1lb. That's 29lbs altogether :D. I seriously don't know where it's going from? My chins are shrinking slightly and the bones in my neck/chest are becoming more prodominent but that's about it. My boobs haven't started shrinking yet, thank god!

I had a filling the other day. HATE. I don't like the dentist at the best of times, but he didn't tell me he was going to give me a filling. So I had to walk round with half of my face numbed! It didn't wear off for 6 hours! I have to have another 2 next time i'm there which I really don't want. Meh.

So now i'm doing all of my washing, replying to emails, listening to the mix cd Chelle made me <3 and then i'm going to fanny about with my make up :)

Toodles xo

Mama

Congratulations to "Sporty Spice" Mel C and her boyfriend, Thomas Starr.
Scarlett Starr was born at 4.10pm on Sunday weighing 8lbs 3oz.

A message on her website said: "Melanie C gave birth to a beautiful little girl at 4.10pm on Sunday February 22. Both mum and baby are doing well."

This nights a perfect shade of dark blue, dark blue.

I burnt my hand :(
Well, actually, I burnt across the back of my fingers. It hurt.

I've been baking today. Me and Sarah made a corned beef and potato pie and a cheese and onion quiche. Then I made cheese and onion pasties, chorizo and bean pasties, 24 fairy cakes and I have meringues in the oven :)

No photos though, I can't be arsed to take any.

I'm going to proper knuckle down and "revise" for my theory test. Sooner I get it over and done with the better. Then I pass my bloody test!

Hey mom, there's something in the back room

Argh I have cold feet! lol.
My socks are in the dryer because the snow invaded my boots.

Me, Bethany and Kayleigh went to the park today to build a snowman. Bethany was quite happy building snowcastles with her bucket and spade, so me and Kayleigh got cracking with the snowman. He was well sexy.

We started having a snowball fight and some random kids decided to join in. It's a good job they were little or I wouldn't have played haha. I'm such a bad loser. Kayleigh was catching my snowballs and throwing them back to me! I fail.

We had to come home after that though because Jade came along to ruin things.

I was going to bake shortbread and fairy cakes but there's no gas ...which doesn't help the cold feet situation. I should go to the shop and get some more but meh.

I'm leaving my fingerprints on you.

WE HAS SNOW!
Not always a good thing.
I fell over 3 times today and I only went to the shops and back!

It was quite funny though, I was walking home with Bethany, Kayleigh and Jade and they were throwing snowballs at eachother. So I made the hugest snowball ever and pretended to throw it at Jade, then threw it at Kayleigh instead and tried to run away before she could get me back. Yeah, I ended up lying face down in the snow laughing my head off and couldn't get up for laughing. Jade fell over and was sitting in the snow laughing and Kayleigh was in creases...even some kids who had passed us were laughing. But then Bethany shouted at us and told us to stop it so we had to get up lol.

So, now I have a sore wrist and sore knees (from landing on them the other 2 times I fell over!).
I've also managed to cut my hand open today...not so good. The snow better stick around, tomorrow i'm making snowmen...FUCK YEAH! I want to take proper photos too, I only have ones from my phone today...

I'm that chord on your guitar..

I've been well busy today!

Me, my sister and Bethany went shopping this morning. Nothing exciting, just a bog standard food shop. Though I did buy some ingredients to make cupcakes. My recipe let me down, the frosting is shit. It's supposed to be proper frosting, like they have in America, but it just looks like melted chocolate...If anyone has a good frosting recipe, send me it please :)

I made about 48 cakes though lol. They're really yummy. The chocolate ones are quite rich but I haven't tried the vanilla ones yet, i'll probably end up being sick if I eat anything else hah. My sister wanted to make pie and quiche too, so I had to make pastry. I'm covered in flour.

I got a tattoo yesterday. The first bit of it hurt quite a bit haha, the rest was fine though. Today it just feels like a bruise but it's cool. I love it, it looks really pretty. I can't decide which one to get next...i've narrowed it down to two lol.

:)

If I don't cry, Do you think I don't feel?
If I look away, it doesn't mean I don't see,
And just because I want someone when I'm alone,
Doesn't mean I'm helpless,
That I can't stand on my own.

How far can we go before we break?
How long can I wait?

How strong do you think I am?
How much can I take of this?
Am I a rock, or a rose, or a fist?
Or the breath at the end of a kiss?
How deep do you want to go, because I'll go there if I can,
You make it harder than it has to be,
How strong how strong, how strong do you think I am?

It's so hard to tell,
What's in your heart,
What you keep to yourself,
Is tearing me apart,
And should I be afraid,
To dream about you?
And if you feel the same,
Whatcha you going to do?

How far can we go before we break?
How long can I wait?

How strong do you think I am?
How much can I take of this?
Am I a rock, or a rose, or a fist?Or the breath at the end of a kiss?
How deep do you want to go, because I'll go there if I can,
You make it harder than it has to be,
How strong how strong, how strong do you think I am?

If I move in any closer,
If you let go and give yourself away,
and if we let this happen to us,
Everything will change.

How strong do you think I am?
How much can I take of this?
Am I a rock, or a rose, or a fist?
Or the breath at the end of a kiss?
How deep do you want to go, because I'll go there if I can,
You make it harder than it has to be,
How strong how strong, how strong,
How strong do you think I am?
How much can I take of this?
Am I a rock, or a rose, or a fist?
Or the breath at the end of a kiss?
How deep do you want to go, because I'll go there if I can,
You make it harder than it has to be,
How strong how strong, how strong,
How strong, how strong, do you think I am?

BRING ON THE TRUMPETS!

I'm enjoying being Superman tonight :)

Sunday Dinner

Why does something ALWAYS go wrong? lol.
I thought everything would be awesome, I prepared everything before I started so nothing would be forgotten..then the chicken decides to take FOREVER to cook. So now everything is ready but the chicken. Grr. My roast parsnips taste gorgeous though :) They're cooking with the chicken and the juices mixed with a little bit of butter and seasoning from the chicken..nomnomnom.

I'm in an alright mood today, which is good cos it seems like i'm never happy inside anymore..
I bought a Superman T-shirt, it's awesome! I'm going to wear it for bed tonight.
Does anyone know who is on Sunday Night Project?